its been ages...i dont even know how long... the stress has reduced...ofcourse i do get shocks once in a while...but either m dealing with it...or they dont have that much of an impact:) feeling more at peace with myself :)
now m at work and typing this blog so ill continue with it when i gt back to typing blogs.. gtg nw :)

Me...

It’s been a long time, and since I treat my blog as my agony aunt, I decided to pour out my woes hmmm, m tired, overwhelmingly... mentally, physically, tired of struggling every single day… but when life throws curves at you, it does so when u are totally not prepared, and unarmed and helpless, your defenses are down… I’m scared; shit scared of becoming more cynical than I already am, more bitter, and jus extremely sober and serious. It’s been a long journey this past year. Have learnt a lot, started thinking more practically, but there are times when I feel like being pampered, being held and told that m loved and someone always looking out for me…I don wanna give any more, I want to take… it sounds selfish but I’ve jus given and given and given and now I have nothing more to give… some times i think tht one of the reasons i love reading so much , is that i get absorbed in someone else's life, i dont have to be there on the scene, i dont have to think of wht to do next, the decisions are made by someone else who i dont have any associations with... well m in a self pitying mood, so pardon :)