A Day of Rushes

So... what do i say about today? It started at 7 am when i woke up. Obviously, i snoozed every fifteen minutes till it was 7. Anyway, I rushed to the kitchen to prepare the Meal of the Day and rushed then, to have a bath and gulp my breakfast down. Woah! To top it all, it was pouring like there was no tomorrow, so i quickly hailed a cab and went to the station, where i had an option of either waiting 15 min for a fast train or taking a slow train. I opted for the slow(i hate waiting!). By the time I reached, my friends had already left for work, so i took a rickshaw and moved amongst the bumper to bumper traffic at S.V road, which incidentally is always jammed, and finally reached work five minutes before my friends!! Well work was hectic, what with all the academic writing, manuals, word shortcuts and COMMAS. Good Lord, the no. of places where u can actually insert commas is mind boggling. Some three tests, a lunch break, another two tests later, I was almost ready to cry, I was so mentally exhausted...

Then we left work, rushed to the bus stop and got a nice 'mahilasathi' bus to the station, where again I ran to the platform, got into the fast train and went on to Mumbai Central. Now here comes the fun part. From platform one, I had to rush to platform three in a matter of 2 minutes to catch a slow train to Grant road. And how i did it in time, only God knows. I got into the, stinky men's compartment, which thankfully was almost clear of them ;) , and finally got off at grant road and peacefully made it to my singing class...only fifteen minutes late :)

as promised, today was the most hectic, yet fulfilling day of my life....no time to brood, or sulk or get irritated. jus needed immense concentation as the day passed. and though it resulted in a massive headache, my singing class gave me enough relaxation that i was able to actually sit here and write this out....well tomm is another day...lets c what happens

unnamed :)...and renamed MAGICAL on special request:)

There have been times when I have been in awe of Mother Nature, hues of color blending into each other and sounds echoing and all of nature construes to illuminate these colors and attenuate the sounds...as the sun breaks through the clouds, it feels like a miracle, the clouds moving over the full moon, a sheath of shimmering material over silver....I’m overwhelmed by the need to share this......
Nature and love really aren’t very different you see, they both leave you feeling overwhelmed, in awe of what you feel. Times when you feel that, indeed a miracle has been blessed upon you. Where your entire being construes to attenuate the sound of your heart beats n illuminate the look in your eyes...the moments you feel are perfect, when nothing can go wrong, when a glance can be an entire conversation and silence takes on a new meaning.....

suffering from writers block...nothing comes to the mind as i sit and ponder over the days work(nothing has been done as such) the weeks work has been productive and the coming week promises to be hectic...:)

Clouds

Today I was watching the clouds…the blue sky speckled with snatches of clouds, colored golden by the setting sun…suddenly a huge black cloud passed by, slowly and gradually covering them...for a moment or two I was able to see the golden specks here and there and then the cloud laden with drops, covered the sky completely…and soon huge drops fell on the parched earth below…After a while it stopped and the cloud passed on, to shower its drops somewhere else….
Somewhere I feel that life is like those golden specks, beautiful yet vulnerable to those phases which are the clouds, and may cease to be beautiful when the drops fall and change everything, but the cloud passes on n so does the phase…there are times when life gets swayed by the circumstances -which incidentally is the wind- and moves along with the phase, at the same time struggling to maintain status quo. Sometimes that doesn’t happen though and one changes as ones circumstances change.
I feel that this is the purpose of life, where we need to be the lotus among mucky water or the speckled clouds amongst the black one, striving to be what we are innately and under no circumstances letting go of our essence, and these phases may not be necessarily bad, but we may just become a better person as a result!
I’d like to think that I’ve become a better person, but somewhere it dawns on me that I still have a long way to go………..

There are times when even though u are broken hearted, u dare to hope and strive to keep alive the belief u have had all along….and there maybe times when – though superficially everything seems normal- u still wonder what’s going on ? What’s meant to be? A simple touch, a glance, makes u feel that nothing can go wrong, and then your brain reproaches u and jerks u out of your self induced oblivion and u realize that all this while, your heart was fooling u. Yet there maybe a kind of love that may not want u for who u are , because there maybe things greater than love, and somewhere u are coerced into accepting it, but u still dare to hope and believe ………..such is life, such is love……………..

feel.....Contd

I was looking out of the window at 130 in the morning.... it was pouring, the wind blowing and the streets getting a makeover. In the street light, the leaves were gleaming, the rain drops were shimmering , the light reflected the water on the road. And all i could do was admire the scenery outside. It was jus pouring, water everywhere, everything so clean and spanking new,
and the talkative person that i am, for once i am absolutely unable to express what i was feeling. I jus felt ....and it was a mixture of elation, profound sadness, regret, hope, guilt, need and warmth. I walked barefoot, back to my bed and snuggled under the covers, amidst all the thunder, lightning and the pounding rain, slipping away gradually into the world of dreams..........

Feel

There is a certain restlessness in the air, bearing with it windy changes, change of weather, a new beginning, a new lifestyle…there is some apprehension about these bearings……curtains are flying about, hues of orange, green and yellow,somewhere a dog barks, I sit in my chair as I type this and feel….. jus feel the wind on my face, a certain excitement about the upcoming rains, again a change, trudging through flooded roads, getting drenched jeans down, balancing a bag, umbrella and myself…. Another time altogether, reminds me of a time we were at bandstand and carters….it suddenly started pouring cats and dogs, a time we walked in the rain under a big colorful rainbow, umbrella. I love marine drive in the rains at night, everything looks so washed and new, so shiny. All the muck being washed away………………
The leaves rustle, the windows bang, cars honk, the wind chime at the window chimes and I sit cozily in my room, remembering, hoping, wishing and anticipating...................

ECSTACY

it has rained and the mood has lifted, i havent felt so ecstatic since a long time, honest... ask the people who have had to bear with me!! well i got a job finaly which is decent enough for me to be able to save (hopefully) and manage my finances without mom being involved. and it rained!!two of my prayers answered on the same day. there is God....hehehe the weather has cooled down and the smell of the mud.....wow.. i remember the times in Salalah when i would run to the balcony to be able to catch atleast two teeny drops on my palm, i dint know the fun of getting soaked in the rain till i came to Mumbai and oh how so!! it became a tradition, chowpatty and the rain, uptil last year. but i definitely plan on renewing the tradition.
hmmm my job is related so something i love...(atleast one of the things, which entices me tyo write here)- Writing! but i gotta edit and i love it tooo :)
so basically m a semi happy person :) woohoooo
im going somewhere, somewhere i belong:)